What do I know...

Just this morning a friend posted this song on Facebook (thank you dear Alexis!) and honestly, I've been a bit paralyzed since listening to it. It so perfectly summarizes the past four years of my journey with the Lord. After almost thirty years of thinking I had a "corner" on who God is, I have been humbled over and over again as I have encountered His holiness.

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?...
Where have I even stood?
But the shore along your ocean.
Are you fire? Are you fury?"

I had so little knowledge of who God is...the weight of His wrath but even more the DEPTHS of His mercy. I chose to believe the things that were easy and failed to pursue the magnitude of His character, the vastness of His attributes. It is so easy to ignore the things we don't understand, to dismiss the things we do not like.

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

A few years ago when we began this journey, my heart was hard and prideful. There are many a day now that I am humbled to reflect on my heart and the anxiety I felt when confronted with how very little I knew. I am eternally grateful to God for pursuing my soul, for revealing Himself to me and for giving me a faithful, patient and wise husband that gently challenged and led me to my knees.

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

I can't speak of His mercy without tears trickling down because now, I can humbly say I have been given a glimpse. Yes, just a glimpse but a glimpse enough to know that in this life I do not want to stop seeking His face because I know that my contentment is not in [anything temporal] but in seeing Him and knowing that all is well between us for when I awake in heaven I will be fully satisfied for I will see Him face to face. (Psalm 17:15, Amplified Version)

What do you know of holy? What do you know of His love?




"What do I know of Holy" by Addison Road